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Two Years Gone: Lessons in Grief & Guilt

January 14, 2018, the day my best friend died. This second year in grief marked a big change for me. The waves weren’t as violent and life wasn’t as hard. Life went on and so did I. It goes without saying, she is on my mind and in my heart every minute. I still spend my days wondering what she would say to a funny thing Manning or Marjorie said. Or what she would say about my latest work adventure.…

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When the [RECOVERY] Jeans Don’t Fit

Are you more inclined to purchase one jean brand over another because the size is smaller? That is certainly how I used to shop. My worth as a human being was tied into the size of my clothes and the number on the scale. The smaller the number, the more worth I carried as a human being. I was smarter, faster, better if my size was smaller than the next person. WHY? Or better yet WHEN did size become a predictor of…

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I AM BRAVE! Marjorie’s Story

How do you tell your child they had cancer? How do you explain the magnitude of their first year of life? You don’t. Well you do...when the time is right. Today we had our yearly oncology appointment. I drag my heels making this appointment I dread it. This year I got a sinking feeling, not that cancer had returned (that lives in the back of your mind), but that Marjorie would ask me WHY?…

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Finding Stillness and Gratitude In a Heart Attack

If there is one thing I've learned in my journey with Marjorie, it is that life can change in the blink of an eye. No matter how much we plan or perfectly color code our calendars, life happens. And with adversity comes miracles. My family and I are counting our blessings extra this Thanksgiving as we received a miracle that could only be written by God Himself...…

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The Scale that Almost Divided Us

Something happened yesterday that jarred me… As I unwrapped and loaded scales in boxes for our Alliance for Eating Disorders NOT ONE MORE walk in Orlando, Jordan came over and tossed a scale on the ground. He is a lighthearted, joking guy and was going to step on the scale. I immediately grabbed it from him. It wasn’t about him weighing himself. He could careless and I don’t care if he does, but not with these scales and definitely not…

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Hi. My Name is McCall and I’m an Imposter

Ever feel like you are floating through life with no idea what you are doing, but you are doing it anyway? That has been my reality every day for the last seven years. I started Southern Smash without a single clue as to what I was doing, but knowing in my gut this was what I was born to do. Not only smashing scales and the mental health stigma, but moreover sharing my story of recovery and healing. Despite the…

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To My Peanut On Your Fifth Birthday

My precious peanut, You’re FIVE! How did that happen? I seemed to have blinked and you’ve grown into a sprouting and sprightly girl before my eyes. Your birthday was not what I ever imagined and each year on this day my heart soars with happiness and gratitude while also aching with longing for what should have been. I said on repeat as I lay in the hospital bed, “Today is not your birthday!” But after two weeks of praying, the…

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