Death Becomes Her
They say grief comes to us in all shapes and sizes, in every life shift there is loss. Loss of a loved one, a job, a relationship, a friendship, a home, a pet…even the loss of who we used to be. I am finding that recovery comes with much grief, more than I could have […]
Magic Pill: Take As Directed
Why did I recover? What made me so special over others who continue to struggle with their eating disorders? How did I keep on my path of recovery after treatment, while so many of my friends sunk back into the darkness of their disorders? Why me? These questions incessantly repeated themselves in my mind last […]
Hurricane Annie.
Today is a popular day for hurricanes. As a Louisiana girl, I have become accustomed to these beasts of Mother Nature. Hurricane Katrina battered my beloved bayou seven years ago today and now Hurricane Isaac is beating down as I type. But these ferocious storms do not hold a candle to the force of nature […]
Tink Therapy.
Inspiration and motivation comes to us in all shapes and sizes. Sometimes those with the least life experience can teach and remind us what is really important in life. My dear Tink fluttered into my life when I needed her most. Unbeknownst to her, she has played a pivotal role in my recovery journey. She […]
Channeling My Inner Julia
Tonight I cooked and ate dinner. For most, this feat is nothing to write home about. But for me, on this particular night, this dinner warrants serious accolades. My sweet husband is out of town so it has been up to me to take care of not just the baby, but myself as well. My […]
Ripping Off the Perfection Band-Aid
I’m at a loss. I want to write. I want to blog. But I have this fear that since my secret blog was ‘outed,’ nothing I write now will be good enough. I started this blog to simply write when I felt compelled…not to compel myself to write. I certainly feel the urge to write, […]
Forever a Rocketchix.
Throughout my life I have let exterior things define me. Whether it was appearance, grades, sorority, jobs or sports, I relied on something else to shape that who I was. Recovery has taught me to define my authentic self with, well…just me. This is not to say the other activities and things are not in […]
Naked.
I woke up this morning feeling a bit naked. No one knew this blog existed until yesterday. After sharing my blog with my friend, she asked me if she could post it on her Facebook. I agreed (after a bottle of wine)…and then with one click my story and soul was out there for all […]
Angels Among Us
Do you remember that one moment in time that forever altered your life? I vividly remember mine. However, that prolific moment did not just alter my life…it saved my life. In the early morning hours of Saturday, July 11, 2009, I told a new friend my secret. A secret not even my husband knew of. I revealed that […]
Never Give Up.
A letter written to an incredible friend I met in residential treatment. She is currently back in treatment, fighting for recovery once again…and this time she will win. My dearest friend, Never give up. You must recover. You do not have a choice. You will die. And even if you survive…if you give up on […]