Brave Girl Walking
Every Tuesday at 10:45am you can find me sitting quietly in the therapy waiting room. There is an unspoken glance and head nod as the patient before you exits the door. Usually, it is the same person that comes out of the door every week at 11:00am, but yesterday it was someone I had […]
Keep the Bra, Burn the Shirt
In continuing my body freedom beach week, I decided to go on a beach run without a shirt. (I know, I even shocked myself with this one. I mean, who is this body loving girl?) My toes sunk into the soft sand as I made my way to the water’s edge. I popped my earbuds […]
Shhh…I love my body.
It is a different sensation to not hate your body. Essentially, I am going against everything I was programmed to know and innately despise. But today, I love my body. Shhhhhh. Did I just say that? Gasp! What will friends think? What will I have to say during those body-bashing lunches? Nothing! Damn that feels […]
Moving Hope
This was it. Time to say goodbye. My footsteps quietly echoed through our empty house as I said my final farewell to our first home. Nearly six years ago, we made this house our home. Its walls witnessed the magnitude of our family’s journey and kept us safe as we weathered the roughest storms of […]
Tuesdays with Mary
For the past four years, I have been in a committed, long-term relationship with someone other than my husband. Her name is Mary. She is my therapist. I stumbled onto her couch in July of 2009. While I would pay good money to be a fly on the wall in our first session, I […]
We are Carolina House
My heart is so heavy. You read about it in books and listen to therapists tell you that eating disorders kill, but you don’t believe it. You never think it will happen to someone you know and you definitely never think it will take your life. But is does and it can. My heart sinks […]
Joke Tickets
We recently sold our house and are scheduled to move into our new home in one month. As you can imagine, the packing pandemonium has begun…or at least the packing procrastination. I really excel in procrastination, like, I’m truly gifted in the art of delay. The idea of packing up our entire home (albeit a […]
Return to the Pink Room
I could not pull over fast enough. The rental car’s tires crunched to a halt at the Southpoint shopping area. I quickly threw the car into park and buried my head in my hands. My heart was overwhelmed with emotions. My morning at the Carolina House was over and the magnitude of this trip and […]
Roll With It
It is going to take some time for my feet to touch the ground. I am back at treatment, but not in that way. Last fall I got an email from my former therapist asking if I would be interested to come share my story in a new group forum. I was so touched the […]
Who is this Girl?
Well, it’s out there. Southern Smash…a crazy idea that suddenly became my pay-it-forward mission. I have NO idea why I feel so compelled to put myself out there in such a way. (Well, a dear friend is partly to blame for being so damn pushy and supportive of my madness.) But seriously, who is this […]