An Open Letter to Lady Gaga’s Belly Roll
Dearest Lady Gaga’s Belly Roll, You are causing quite the stir in the social media stratosphere after Sunday’s spectacular Super Bowl Performance. But, if I’m being honest here, I didn’t notice you. I’m so sorry. I completely overlooked your big debut because I was entranced by the performance. To my shock and dismay, Monday’s news […]
Heading Back to Treatment
Yesterday, in between work emails and changing diapers, I received a text message that stopped me dead in my tracks: “I’m being admitted Thursday at 10:30…relieved but scared.” An admission date and time was finally bestowed upon a sweet young woman I’ve been helping. Reading her text brought back those same emotions I felt on when I […]
Your Fire is Calling. Answer It.
“What do you want to be, McCall? Where is that fire inside telling you to go?” I was 18-years old and just weeks away from starting college. My mom and I were driving to orientation and talking about my future. It was one of those moments and conversations I will forever remember. I wanted nothing […]
Smashing the Pregnancy Scale
Tap…Tap…Tap…Tap… The weight kept jolting further and further to the right. Higher and higher. My anxiety raised in parallel unison with the climb of the scale’s number. (Oh, you thought I was immune from scales because I smash them for a living? Not so much.) The nurse silently wrote down a number and I followed […]
Gisele, Meet McCall
My heart is in my throat and beating out of control. “Am I really going to do this tomorrow?” “Have I completely lost my mind?” That inner critic/eating disorder voice is yelling in my head, as the ‘should’s’ whirl around in a tornadic frenzy. “You should run some more. You should not eat. You shouldn’t […]
Keep the Bra, Burn the Shirt
In continuing my body freedom beach week, I decided to go on a beach run without a shirt. (I know, I even shocked myself with this one. I mean, who is this body loving girl?) My toes sunk into the soft sand as I made my way to the water’s edge. I popped my earbuds […]
Shhh…I love my body.
It is a different sensation to not hate your body. Essentially, I am going against everything I was programmed to know and innately despise. But today, I love my body. Shhhhhh. Did I just say that? Gasp! What will friends think? What will I have to say during those body-bashing lunches? Nothing! Damn that feels […]
Cultivating My Inner Sparkle
The first Saturday in May. My favorite day of the year. Girls on the Run 5k! I was out the door before sunrise, locked and loaded with everything ‘She-Power’. Sparkle headbands, braided pigtails, crazy running pants and of course a tie-dye one of a kind GOTR T-shirt. Bring it. I was ready to GEAUX. But […]
Scheduling Mortality
If you know me, then you know my GaGa. For those who don’t know me, let me introduce you to my GaGa. Meet GaGa… By definition she is my grandmother, but by the grace of God she is my best friend, my second mother, my confidant, my soul mate. Throughout my life she has been […]
Ripping Off the Perfection Band-Aid
I’m at a loss. I want to write. I want to blog. But I have this fear that since my secret blog was ‘outed,’ nothing I write now will be good enough. I started this blog to simply write when I felt compelled…not to compel myself to write. I certainly feel the urge to write, […]