Shhh…I love my body.
It is a different sensation to not hate your body. Essentially, I am going against everything I was programmed to know and innately despise. But today, I love my body. Shhhhhh. Did I just say that? Gasp! What will friends think? What will I have to say during those body-bashing lunches? Nothing! Damn that feels […]
Seated Strength
When I decided to admit myself to treatment, I had no idea the process I would have to undergo. In my mind, going to treatment was like the TV show Intervention or Dr. Phil, where the addict says, ‘Yes, I will go.’ Then the family cries, hugs it out and then a plane scoops her […]
Moving Hope
This was it. Time to say goodbye. My footsteps quietly echoed through our empty house as I said my final farewell to our first home. Nearly six years ago, we made this house our home. Its walls witnessed the magnitude of our family’s journey and kept us safe as we weathered the roughest storms of […]
Tuesdays with Mary
For the past four years, I have been in a committed, long-term relationship with someone other than my husband. Her name is Mary. She is my therapist. I stumbled onto her couch in July of 2009. While I would pay good money to be a fly on the wall in our first session, I […]
Boston Boundaries
As I sit in my cozy airplane window seat, I can’t help but reflect back on my Boston experience. I thought this blog would mainly be about my time at the Almost Anorexic book signing, but there is something else compelling my fingers to click away on this early morning flight home: BOUNDARIES A word […]
We are Carolina House
My heart is so heavy. You read about it in books and listen to therapists tell you that eating disorders kill, but you don’t believe it. You never think it will happen to someone you know and you definitely never think it will take your life. But is does and it can. My heart sinks […]
July 11
.July 11. Today marks four years since I made a decision that would ultimately alter the course of my life. A decision that set me on this beautiful path of recovery. Last year, I told my July 11th story in the blog “Angels Among Us.” This year, I can’t help but reflect on the magnitude that […]
Joke Tickets
We recently sold our house and are scheduled to move into our new home in one month. As you can imagine, the packing pandemonium has begun…or at least the packing procrastination. I really excel in procrastination, like, I’m truly gifted in the art of delay. The idea of packing up our entire home (albeit a […]
F* Bombs
**Disclaimer: This blog contains foul three letter language that may not be suitable for all readers. Parental discretion advised.** I woke this morning feeling F-A-T. FAT. Insert therapist voice: “Fat is not a feeling, McCall.” Today, I was positive the therapy gods were WRONG. Fat was definitely a feeling. I needed for it to be […]
Banish the BOARDS!!!
Blogging is always a gamble. When you click the ‘Publish’ button, you are putting yourself out there, boldly stating your story, opinion and emotions. Inevitably, the doubt creeps in: Will people think it is dumb? Cliche? Uninteresting? Boring? The list goes on. Blogging makes you so vulnerable. And when you go the extra step to […]