Loving My Body in the Grey
(My Guest Blog post on Love Our Bodies, Love Ourselves) Body image. The elusive positive body image that your treatment team constantly chatters about. Sure it would be nice to love your body, but let’s be real here, the notion of loving your body after spending years hating it is frankly insane. Love my body? […]
An Empty Finish Line
Yesterday, I crossed a finish line. Yep, that was all it was, a finish line. A man-made line in the street to declare the race complete. Nothing more, nothing less. Of course completing a half-marathon is nothing to laugh at. I am super proud of my husband and myself for completing our first race together. But […]
Having Cake and Eating It Too
I woke up yesterday morning with a smile on my face and a pep in my step. It was my birthday and this year I found myself truly content and at peace. I always shrugged off my birthday. I was never one to have birthday countdowns and I envied the people who did. It is […]
Find Your PLAY!
The sun fell into the Louisiana bayou, as my husband and I ran side by side on an evening run. The sky was an amazing fluorescent pink and purple and the crisp fall air was simply perfect. We pushed our son in his stroller as he clutched his beloved golf club and juice cup in […]
Faking My Way To Worthiness
I have a secret. Up until a few weeks ago, I felt completely unworthy in the eating disorder and speaking world. There weren’t any letters behind my name or degrees on the wall to prove my worth or that I belonged. Mingling with researchers or speaking on panels with professionals, especially ones that I knew, […]
Christy’s Corner
As I sit in the airport and reflect on this extraordinary trip, my heart is filled with gratitude and inspiration. I plan to recap the entire trip in blog form soon, but I need more time to process the intense feelings that came along with such an experience. However, there is something urging my fingers […]
Productive Reflections
It is a soggy morning at SMASH HQ. I love these grey mornings, especially in my new office with its amazing 12-foot window overlooking our front porch. The house is quiet (except for my bulldog, Lilly, snoring under my desk). I find myself unable to be ‘productive’. I hate that word anyway. What does it […]
Gisele, Meet McCall
My heart is in my throat and beating out of control. “Am I really going to do this tomorrow?” “Have I completely lost my mind?” That inner critic/eating disorder voice is yelling in my head, as the ‘should’s’ whirl around in a tornadic frenzy. “You should run some more. You should not eat. You shouldn’t […]
Brave Girl Walking
Every Tuesday at 10:45am you can find me sitting quietly in the therapy waiting room. There is an unspoken glance and head nod as the patient before you exits the door. Usually, it is the same person that comes out of the door every week at 11:00am, but yesterday it was someone I had […]
Keep the Bra, Burn the Shirt
In continuing my body freedom beach week, I decided to go on a beach run without a shirt. (I know, I even shocked myself with this one. I mean, who is this body loving girl?) My toes sunk into the soft sand as I made my way to the water’s edge. I popped my earbuds […]