Anger Management
Anger. Frustration. Annoyance. All are feelings I simply suck at. I am so far removed from them I don’t even know where to begin or how to ‘feel’ them. I am working hard right now on getting in touch with these lost feelings and, frankly, I’m feeling annoyed with having to do so. I don’t […]
SMASH Gratitude
As my feet continue to try and touch the ground, my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude to everyone who made and continues to make Southern Smash possible. My SMASH gratitude list is too long to Tweet and too important to squish in a Facebook status. Therefore, I felt this was the best place for my […]
Just Go With It
Authentic. Real. Raw. These words are new to me. Never before have I felt more comfortable in my skin. Never before have I felt that I live my life as ME…not as who others want me to be. I’m simply McCall – quirky, energetic, passionate and full of LIFE. These feelings of authenticity did not […]
Health in Moderation
Healthy. What does being healthy really mean? Is healthy running daily and eating a balanced diet? Is it practicing yoga, meditation and mindfulness while eating vegetarian? Is it swinging from one diet to another, trying to squeeze in a walk or two into a packed workweek? Is it weighing yourself daily making sure you stay […]
Death Becomes Her
They say grief comes to us in all shapes and sizes, in every life shift there is loss. Loss of a loved one, a job, a relationship, a friendship, a home, a pet…even the loss of who we used to be. I am finding that recovery comes with much grief, more than I could have […]
Tink Therapy.
Inspiration and motivation comes to us in all shapes and sizes. Sometimes those with the least life experience can teach and remind us what is really important in life. My dear Tink fluttered into my life when I needed her most. Unbeknownst to her, she has played a pivotal role in my recovery journey. She […]
Sunday Love.
I used to hate Sundays…I mean despise them. Sundays were tortured, lonely days…just me and my eating disorder. Because my weeks were spent in severe restriction and my weekends were spent eating and drinking like a ‘regular’ person, my Sundays were filled with overwhelming guilt and a gut wrenching sickness. They were my day to […]
Letter to ED…
I’ve been digging through some old journals and emails lately and came across the very first letter I wrote to ED back in February 2010. Now you have to remember, my struggles stretch back over fifteen plus years, but I did not seek treatment until July 2009, therefore, my first letter only came two years […]
Recovery Truths
After 15+ years of living in the fog of my eating disorder, I am finally living my life in full, vivid color. This month I will celebrate my eighth month in recovery from my eating disorder. I have gained much in my short time in recovery…learning many lessons and recovery truths along the way. I […]