Loving My Body in the Grey
(My Guest Blog post on Love Our Bodies, Love Ourselves) Body image. The elusive positive body image that your treatment team constantly chatters about. Sure it would be nice to love your body, but let’s be real here, the notion of loving your body after spending years hating it is frankly insane. Love my body? […]
Brave Boys Cry
2.17.2014 To my dearest son, As I write you on your second birthday, I can’t help but be overwhelmed with the amount of love I have for you and the joy you bring to my life. If these past two years are any indication as to how fast time moves, you will be riding your first […]
An Empty Finish Line
Yesterday, I crossed a finish line. Yep, that was all it was, a finish line. A man-made line in the street to declare the race complete. Nothing more, nothing less. Of course completing a half-marathon is nothing to laugh at. I am super proud of my husband and myself for completing our first race together. But […]
Productive Reflections
It is a soggy morning at SMASH HQ. I love these grey mornings, especially in my new office with its amazing 12-foot window overlooking our front porch. The house is quiet (except for my bulldog, Lilly, snoring under my desk). I find myself unable to be ‘productive’. I hate that word anyway. What does it […]
Gisele, Meet McCall
My heart is in my throat and beating out of control. “Am I really going to do this tomorrow?” “Have I completely lost my mind?” That inner critic/eating disorder voice is yelling in my head, as the ‘should’s’ whirl around in a tornadic frenzy. “You should run some more. You should not eat. You shouldn’t […]
Keep the Bra, Burn the Shirt
In continuing my body freedom beach week, I decided to go on a beach run without a shirt. (I know, I even shocked myself with this one. I mean, who is this body loving girl?) My toes sunk into the soft sand as I made my way to the water’s edge. I popped my earbuds […]
Shhh…I love my body.
It is a different sensation to not hate your body. Essentially, I am going against everything I was programmed to know and innately despise. But today, I love my body. Shhhhhh. Did I just say that? Gasp! What will friends think? What will I have to say during those body-bashing lunches? Nothing! Damn that feels […]
Banish the BOARDS!!!
Blogging is always a gamble. When you click the ‘Publish’ button, you are putting yourself out there, boldly stating your story, opinion and emotions. Inevitably, the doubt creeps in: Will people think it is dumb? Cliche? Uninteresting? Boring? The list goes on. Blogging makes you so vulnerable. And when you go the extra step to […]
Ditch the Downsize
In 2008, I joined Woman’s Fitness Center here in Baton Rouge. I joined that particular gym because of its women-only and caring environment. For the most part, the Fitness Center was about empowering and motivating women to become healthy. My membership expired when I went to treatment. I did not renew it upon my return […]
Cultivating My Inner Sparkle
The first Saturday in May. My favorite day of the year. Girls on the Run 5k! I was out the door before sunrise, locked and loaded with everything ‘She-Power’. Sparkle headbands, braided pigtails, crazy running pants and of course a tie-dye one of a kind GOTR T-shirt. Bring it. I was ready to GEAUX. But […]