My Birthday Wish to Disappear
12.07.2010 “…happy birthday dear McCall. Happy birthday to you.” As the birthday song ended, I leaned over and blew out the candles teetering atop the chocolate cake. I smiled and made a wish just like a good girl should. But on this particular birthday five years ago, my wish was drastically different than previous years. I […]
Your Fire is Calling. Answer It.
“What do you want to be, McCall? Where is that fire inside telling you to go?” I was 18-years old and just weeks away from starting college. My mom and I were driving to orientation and talking about my future. It was one of those moments and conversations I will forever remember. I wanted nothing […]
Surviving Goodbye
Last week I had the honor of speaking and meeting with the amazing patients of Castlewood. I was touched by their openness and engagement during our time together. I could have sat and talked with them all day. They were full of questions that both challenged and excited my thoughts surrounding eating disorder recovery. As I sat […]
Rubber Food SmackDown
I often write about people and professionals who have greatly impacted my recovery journey, but there has been one professional category that I have yet to write about. The Nutritionist. (Insert negative ‘Dun-dun-dun’ music here.) Nutritionists get the worst rap out of anyone on the ED Treatment team. Not to mention, they also own various pieces […]
Who will you SMASH for?
Gorgeous autumn shades lined the two lane road leading to 176 Lassiter Homestead. As I pulled down the windy entrance road to the Carolina House, my heart skipped a beat. Yes, I was finally returning home, if only for an afternoon. It was a picture perfect day of clear blue skies, much like my first […]
Christy’s Corner
As I sit in the airport and reflect on this extraordinary trip, my heart is filled with gratitude and inspiration. I plan to recap the entire trip in blog form soon, but I need more time to process the intense feelings that came along with such an experience. However, there is something urging my fingers […]
Brave Girl Walking
Every Tuesday at 10:45am you can find me sitting quietly in the therapy waiting room. There is an unspoken glance and head nod as the patient before you exits the door. Usually, it is the same person that comes out of the door every week at 11:00am, but yesterday it was someone I had […]
Moving Hope
This was it. Time to say goodbye. My footsteps quietly echoed through our empty house as I said my final farewell to our first home. Nearly six years ago, we made this house our home. Its walls witnessed the magnitude of our family’s journey and kept us safe as we weathered the roughest storms of […]
Tuesdays with Mary
For the past four years, I have been in a committed, long-term relationship with someone other than my husband. Her name is Mary. She is my therapist. I stumbled onto her couch in July of 2009. While I would pay good money to be a fly on the wall in our first session, I […]
Anger Management
Anger. Frustration. Annoyance. All are feelings I simply suck at. I am so far removed from them I don’t even know where to begin or how to ‘feel’ them. I am working hard right now on getting in touch with these lost feelings and, frankly, I’m feeling annoyed with having to do so. I don’t […]