SMASH Gratitude
As my feet continue to try and touch the ground, my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude to everyone who made and continues to make Southern Smash possible. My SMASH gratitude list is too long to Tweet and too important to squish in a Facebook status. Therefore, I felt this was the best place for my […]
Roll With It
It is going to take some time for my feet to touch the ground. I am back at treatment, but not in that way. Last fall I got an email from my former therapist asking if I would be interested to come share my story in a new group forum. I was so touched the […]
12.14.10
Two years. How does that happen? It feels like yesterday. To me, it still was just yesterday. December 14, 2010 The day I entered the Carolina House, a place that would forever alter the course of my life. The day I put all my trust and faith into the incredible treatment team’s loving hands. The […]
Magic Pill: Take As Directed
Why did I recover? What made me so special over others who continue to struggle with their eating disorders? How did I keep on my path of recovery after treatment, while so many of my friends sunk back into the darkness of their disorders? Why me? These questions incessantly repeated themselves in my mind last […]
Tink Therapy.
Inspiration and motivation comes to us in all shapes and sizes. Sometimes those with the least life experience can teach and remind us what is really important in life. My dear Tink fluttered into my life when I needed her most. Unbeknownst to her, she has played a pivotal role in my recovery journey. She […]
Channeling My Inner Julia
Tonight I cooked and ate dinner. For most, this feat is nothing to write home about. But for me, on this particular night, this dinner warrants serious accolades. My sweet husband is out of town so it has been up to me to take care of not just the baby, but myself as well. My […]
Second Letter to ED: NBD No More.
This letter was written approximately one year after the first letter I wrote to my eating disorder (Letter to Ed). It is interesting to go back and note the difference between the two. The first was written only six months into my outpatient treatment and the second was written a year later while I was […]
ED’s Obituary.
This past January I received the odd Therapy Homework of writing my eating disorder’s obituary. I definitely thought my therapist was off her rocker when she asked if I would be willing to write one, but oddly enough it turned out to be very healing. I feel anything that helps us further separate ourselves from […]
Letter to ED…
I’ve been digging through some old journals and emails lately and came across the very first letter I wrote to ED back in February 2010. Now you have to remember, my struggles stretch back over fifteen plus years, but I did not seek treatment until July 2009, therefore, my first letter only came two years […]