Cancer: The Aftermath
“You’re child has cancer.” 49 days later… “Marjorie no longer needs chemo.” Within a seven week period, the rug was ripped out from under my feet and shoved back under just as quickly. My head hasn’t stopped spinning and my heart hasn’t slowed. My emotions go from wandering thoughts about nothing to anger to snuggles […]
Tears of Strength, Cries of Bravery
‘My daughter has cancer’ is a sentence I will never get used to saying outline, nor do I want to. Today, I had to tell that to a stranger in the grocery store when she asked about Marjorie’s PICC line. “My daughter has cancer.” Her simple question was one of the hardest I’ve ever had to […]
Compassionate Pizza
I hate the saying: “There’s always someone who has it worse.” It completely minimizes the feelings we have inside about our current situation, no matter how ‘bad’ or ‘not so bad’ it may be. Minimization kept me from seeking treatment for years and it kept me from owning the severity of my eating disorder. “I’m not that […]
Cancer: Month One
One month. On this very day one month ago, our lives changed forever. The doctor said the word no parent ever wants to hear. Cancer. It has been a month of terror, love, heartache and gratitude. It’s hard to believe it has only been a month. My tired body and mind would disagree. It feels like we […]
Dinner Date
Have you ever been asked that interview question, “Who would you invite to a dinner party?” This thought popped into my head the other night and I immediately knew my guest list. Brene Brown, Molly Barker, and Ellen Degeneres If you know me, then this list does not shock you. If you don’t, well here’s […]
The Gift of Receiving
Growing up, I was your All-American Catholic school girl. I rocked the plaid uniform, penny loafers, went to mass and stood in line (well sometimes). Beginning in middle school and especially in high school, we were required to do service hours. From soup kitchens to mission trips, girls raced to finish their hours at the […]
Love Conquers All
Rocking my baby in a dark, quiet room on the Oncology Floor at Wolfson Children’s Hospital. If it weren’t for the monitor beeps and seven wires attached to her, I would think we were home. I find my thoughts wandering in these dark quiet hours… How did we get here? Why does my child, my […]
Finding Light in the Dark
I splashed cold water on my face and buried my face in the hospital grade paper towel. I hesitated to remove the stiff towel. Maybe if I wait long enough this nightmare will be over. None of this will have happened. I will remove the paper towel and look up to see my bathroom and […]
Just say NO to the Bone
I’ve stared at this blank screen since last night. If you know me, you know I am never at a loss for words. But overwhelmed is the only word that comes to mind right now. Overwhelmed with GRATITUDE. The outpouring of love, support and prayer is simply overwhelming. You all love us and we FEEL […]
The C Word
Cancer. I’m in a nightmare and want to wake up. Neuroblastoma in her liver and adrenal glands. Biopsy and more testing to come. Definitive answers Friday or Monday. Jordan and I are completely devastated, but we move forward. We have attacked the nurses and doctors with questions and they have been phenomenal. They are truly […]