The Waiting Games
We wait. And wait. And wait. Last night was the longest of my life. I forced myself to lie down because all I wanted to do was stand and watch my baby sleep. I feared sleep. It was the enemy. I knew that if I drifted to sleep I would have to wake up and […]
Prayers for My Marjorie…again.
Never thought I would be writing another blog from an ambulance, but once again my world is crashing around me. The doctor came into Marjorie’s hospital room and said two words no parent ever wants to hear. “…a mass.” We began the day at the doctor hoping her prognosis and reason behind her stomach distention […]
Forever and Always Your Momma
To my beloved children, I prayed for you for years and now I don’t remember a world without you. My heart bursts with gratitude that God picked me to be your mother. Motherhood is the messiest, most stressful and life changing gift, not a job, but a gift that I cherish. Thank you for teaching […]
The Best Body Cleanse
My husband called me today to say his afternoon lesson cancelled. “Let’s take the kids to the beach today,” he said on the phone. I excitedly agreed and started gathering beach (and baby) essentials: swim trunks, towels, diapers, bottles, sunscreen and of course MY bathing suit. As I grabbed my bikini from the drawer and […]
Lost and Found
Yesterday, I took my daughter to church for the first time to see (or rather to sleep through) her sweet friend’s baptism. At the party afterwards I found myself choking back tears as I watched family friends parading Marjorie around. We were out of the house and doing something normal. I was finally able to […]
Gaining My Groove Back
Today I went on a run. A seemingly simple sunset run, but my mind started turning as soon as my feet hit the pavement. Since exercise addiction was a big part of my eating disorder, my ability to move my body without the pressure of ‘burning this’ or ‘losing that’ still astounds me. Every day […]
Four Years: Finding Rainbows in the Storm
December 14, 2010, a day that forever changed my life and ultimately prepared me for what life had in store. Fours years ago I would have never guessed that my eating disorder would be the greatest gift in what would ultimately become the most traumatic time in my life. This year my world suddenly and drastically changed on […]
A God Wink
God winks are what happens when the stars align and something impossible suddenly becomes possible. That happened today and the result was well, spectacular. From October until late spring, the NICU has a strict policy on visitors: parents and grandparents ONLY. Its purpose is to keep babies safe during flu season. Tuesday night I got […]
Grieving My Baby Belly
Today I did the arduous chore of cleaning my closet. I’m not just talking about hanging a few fallen shirts and pants. I mean unpacking bags from the hospital to sorting through summer and winter clothes. And in the midst of the closet chaos lay the reason I had put off this chore: my maternity clothes. […]
Life Lessons from Miraculous Marjorie
Marjorie Mims Dempsey took the world and our hearts by storm two weeks ago. In just fourteen days she has taught me countless life lessons. She has inspired so many of us with her feisty spirit and small but mighty attitude. So on her fourteenth day of life, I think it is fitting to jot […]