On Being StillWeekends in treatment were slow…and I mean sloooooow. It was so frustrating to have so much downtime in our schedule. We should be ‘working’…Continue Reading →
Cuddling With Fear & Daring to FAILSunday afternoon I found myself in my office catching up on emails. My professional procrastination got the best of me as I began searching the…Continue Reading →
Carolina: Forever & Always In My MindDecember 2010 “McCall, breathe with me. Breathe in 2…3…4…out…2…3…4” I could hear the words being spoken to me, but couldn’t catch my breath. I sobbed…Continue Reading →
Detoxing from a Weekend BingeHere is what my former eating disordered life looked like: Monday-Thursday: restrict, calorie rules, weighing in 20-40 times per day, diet pills, low fat,…Continue Reading →
The Anatomy of Recovery: From Purging to Professional VisitsFebruary 9, 2011 Up and down. Up and down. One step at a time, then two. I raced up and down the stairs unpacking…Continue Reading →
Cancer Prayers & Mental Illness MurmursNo matter how many activities I packed into today, time seemed to stand still. My heart raced and my mind was dizzy. I have…Continue Reading →
Heading Back to TreatmentYesterday, in between work emails and changing diapers, I received a text message that stopped me dead in my tracks: “I’m being admitted Thursday…Continue Reading →
Why a New Year Does Not Mean a New YouSo there I was in 2010, feeling like a loser who had failed at life. My hands held knitting needles instead of a champagne…Continue Reading →
Facing GhostsToday I earned a new piece of flare to pin on my Mom Vest. The “My Son Projectile Vomited All Over Me” is now…Continue Reading →
Why I Hate Group ExerciseYou know the scenario: you tell yourself today is the day you are going to try that new yoga, cycling or group fitness class.…Continue Reading →
