2015: Shitting Rainbowsshitting rainbows It’s my favorite saying. If you’ve ever heard me speak about my journey to recovery and life thereafter then you’ve heard me…Continue Reading →
My Birthday Wish to Disappear12.07.2010 “…happy birthday dear McCall. Happy birthday to you.” As the birthday song ended, I leaned over and blew out the candles teetering atop…Continue Reading →
Your Fire is Calling. Answer It.“What do you want to be, McCall? Where is that fire inside telling you to go?” I was 18-years old and just weeks away…Continue Reading →
Foreboding JoyLet me set the scene: I currently live somewhere between gratitude and sheer anxiety and terror. My to-do list is light years long and…Continue Reading →
Lost and FoundYesterday, I took my daughter to church for the first time to see (or rather to sleep through) her sweet friend’s baptism. At the…Continue Reading →
Smashing the Pregnancy ScaleTap…Tap…Tap…Tap… The weight kept jolting further and further to the right. Higher and higher. My anxiety raised in parallel unison with the climb of…Continue Reading →
Brave Girl WalkingEvery Tuesday at 10:45am you can find me sitting quietly in the therapy waiting room. There is an unspoken glance and head nod…Continue Reading →
Moving HopeThis was it. Time to say goodbye. My footsteps quietly echoed through our empty house as I said my final farewell to our first…Continue Reading →
Tuesdays with MaryFor the past four years, I have been in a committed, long-term relationship with someone other than my husband. Her name is Mary. She…Continue Reading →
We are Carolina HouseMy heart is so heavy. You read about it in books and listen to therapists tell you that eating disorders kill, but you don’t…Continue Reading →
