In the Blink of an EyeI knew this photo was coming and today it popped up. One year. I vividly remember this day. It was the day I looked…Continue Reading →
Why I Thank God for My Eating DisorderThe buttered bagel sat on my car’s console. I stared at it with tears streaming down my face. The tears had nothing to do…Continue Reading →
Carolina: Forever & Always In My MindDecember 2010 “McCall, breathe with me. Breathe in 2…3…4…out…2…3…4” I could hear the words being spoken to me, but couldn’t catch my breath. I sobbed…Continue Reading →
Detoxing from a Weekend BingeHere is what my former eating disordered life looked like: Monday-Thursday: restrict, calorie rules, weighing in 20-40 times per day, diet pills, low fat,…Continue Reading →
A Prisoner Of My Own Mind: Inside My Eating DisorderHave you ever wondered what it is like to have an EATING DISORDER? What it is like to live with a horrific mental illness…Continue Reading →
The Anatomy of Recovery: From Purging to Professional VisitsFebruary 9, 2011 Up and down. Up and down. One step at a time, then two. I raced up and down the stairs unpacking…Continue Reading →
Cancer Prayers & Mental Illness MurmursNo matter how many activities I packed into today, time seemed to stand still. My heart raced and my mind was dizzy. I have…Continue Reading →
Heading Back to TreatmentYesterday, in between work emails and changing diapers, I received a text message that stopped me dead in my tracks: “I’m being admitted Thursday…Continue Reading →
Why a New Year Does Not Mean a New YouSo there I was in 2010, feeling like a loser who had failed at life. My hands held knitting needles instead of a champagne…Continue Reading →
2015: Shitting Rainbowsshitting rainbows It’s my favorite saying. If you’ve ever heard me speak about my journey to recovery and life thereafter then you’ve heard me…Continue Reading →