I’ve been digging through some old journals and emails lately and came across the very first letter I wrote to ED back in February 2010. Now you have to remember, my struggles stretch back over fifteen plus years, but I did not seek treatment until July 2009, therefore, my first letter only came two years ago. This therapeutic assignment opened my eyes to how writing can set you free. For the first time ever I could be brutally honest and…
Life in recovery is anything but easy. Sure, my life is 10,000 times better than what it once was, but to be perfectly honest part of me just feels like I have to say that…life is so much better now…yadda, yadda, yadda. There is much honesty and truth in that statement, but I also think that sometimes I just want to be brutally honest with people and just say this sucks. It sucks to have an eating disorder and it…
Faith: something I lost to my eating disorder, but I don’t think I realized I lost it until I had it back. One of the most beautiful things about recovery has been rediscovering my faith…keyword being MY faith. Not my parents’, not my teachers’, not my husband’s…but mine. As a child, you obviously lean toward whatever faith you are born into…I grew up in the world of Catholicism. Twelve plus years of Catholic school gave me a strong foundation for…
After 15+ years of living in the fog of my eating disorder, I am finally living my life in full, vivid color. This month I will celebrate my eighth month in recovery from my eating disorder. I have gained much in my short time in recovery…learning many lessons and recovery truths along the way. I recently sat down to write a ‘good bye’ letter to a dear friend of mine who was finally discharging from the residential treatment home where…
I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while now, but never had the guts to put myself out there in such a fashion. Plus, what would I write about? Who would read it? Well…I’ve finally come to terms that a) I want to write and b) I don’t care who does or does not read this. I want to write about my experiences, especially in this tumultuous past year. This blog will not be filled with any eloquent…